I’ve had a post sitting as a draft for my blog for weeks…unsure how to word how I was feeling at the time and so it has sat. Generally, it was about the importance of spending quality time with those you love. Sometimes you don’t know when that time will be gone forever. Other times you sadly watch that time slip away. You see, over the past few months I have lost two dear uncles. One very suddenly…it was a drop the phone on the floor kind of moment because it was simply one of those things you never expected. And the other was a long sad process as Cancer took everything he had. It was a phone call received late at night in which you really just prayed to God and thanked him for putting an end to the suffering. Neither were easy. While it was a blessing perhaps to have the chance to say goodbye and let my one uncle know how much he meant to me…it still hurt like heck when he passed.
I’ve thankfully never really had to deal with the passing of close family members. My two grandpa’s passed away…one right before Taylor was born and one shortly after he was born. And while their passing certainly had an effect on me and I miss them dearly…they had both lived amazingly full lives. My two uncles however were far to young and had much left to live for.
These events have of course, put things into a lot of perspective. My Uncle Ray and Uncle Don put family above everything…as we all should. I don’t think anyone could argue that they lived their lives to the fullest and they had so many adventures.
I have vowed to do the same. It is very easy to become complacent with life and to let mundane things take over. I will not let that happen. I am not only taking time to enjoy the simple moments with my kids and with Andrew…but I’m also getting out myself to enjoy new things. Though work is still very important, I am prioritizing. I have committed to taking days off. To booking things around my family instead of my family around work. I am taking holidays. We are spending weekends away, creating memories. In the event that something happens to me before I’m ready to go, I want my kids to KNOW that they meant the world to me. I want them to KNOW that they were special. And I want them to be able to look back on our time together with fond memories.
I am so proud of my little family. Each of my kids make me smile every day. They make me happier than I could ever imagine.
Ugh. I don’t know what is going on but I’m in a serious funk. Maybe it’s that I’m coming down from the high of a great family vacation. Maybe it’s the fact that we can’t go to Calgary as a family this weekend. Or quite possibly it’s the weather. Regardless of the reason, I’m just plain feeling bummed and drained.
I don’t feel like working. I don’t feel like exercising. I don’t feel like eating and I don’t feel like playing. I really, really just want to crawl into bed and watch movies and sleep.
Hoping this mood lifts…soon. Simply put I don’t have time for the lack of motivation and energy.
As always, it’s been a long time since I last posted…I will no longer apologize. It is what it is. Though as I was laying in bed last night thinking about the amazing vacation I just had, I realized that I am truly doing myself a disservice by NOT blogging. Regardless of whether people enjoy my posts or not, I cherish the ability to go back on my posts and see what I was up to, and most importantly, what my kids were up to. I have not been scrapbooking as of late, and so things that are not written are sadly kinda forgotten. And I don’t want to forget. As I was laying in bed last night, unable to sleep I was again reminded just how fast my kids are growing up. Gone forever are the toddler years. And pretty soon, gone forever are the preschool years. And I simply don’t want to forget. I don’t want to forget what made my kids smile and laugh. What they did and did not enjoy. How school was. Their accomplishments. Their lives are simply to precious to me, and so I am committing to at minimum, monthly blog posts. I know I have said this before. But changes have been made, my life is more organized, priorities have been readjusted and this is written IN MY CALENDAR!!! Before facebook, I blog! And so we begin…
We just returned from the most fabulous trip to Panorama Village. A solid 8 days with my family (and a few friends). 6 days of snowboarding, hot tubbing, swimming, hiking, snuggling and simply reconnecting as a family after an insanely busy winter. Pure and simple…it was bliss. All the activities aside, I truly believe this trip brought us closer together as a family. And that to me is so important. Our lives…all of our lives are so busy. It’s our own doing…that I get. And I wouldn’t change it because my kids are active and most importantly happy. But at the end of each season, it is nice to take a break and take the time to reconnect and spend time enjoying each other’s company. Finding common ground so to speak in an activity we can all enjoy is so perfect. I couldn’t have asked for more from this trip and I am so thankful!
Since moving here, I have done a lot of changing I think. For the good. I have started taking more time out for myself. While I used to consider myself as being selfish any time I took time away from the kids, my thoughts on this have shifted. My kids are my world. Drew is my world. But I have learned that taking an hour or two out one or two nights a week is extremely important. When I do something I enjoy, I am a better mother. A more patient mother. A more fun mother. I feel energized. Compelled to take the kids to try something new. And so this spring, I have TOTALLY stepped out of my little box to try two new things. I will be playing ball hockey once a week with some other mom’s from Strathcona County and Sherwood Park. This scares me. A lot. Because I am competitive and quite frankly, afraid I will suck. But it’s great exercise and a great way to get out and meet new people not centred totally around my children. Secondly, I am taking up Mountain Biking. I have NEVER done this before, but have signed up for a local club called Dirt Girls. I’m taking a full day lesson the beginning of May and then going on weekly treks in the river valley. I think this scares me more. Because I’m going at this alone. Knowing no one. And I’m such a shy person that this is REALLY stepping outside the box for me. But I’m also excited. This is something that is right up my ally. Enjoying nature while getting some major exercise? Yes please! Plus, as the kids get older it can be something they will enjoy and we can all do together as well!! So I’m jumping in with both feet.
Anyways, I look forward to posting more. Perhaps focusing on taking more pics of the kids to post their growing. Because they certainly are. And quickly. Cheers to you all 🙂 If anyone still even follows anymore.
It has been an awesome summer full of many, many changes!! I don’t think a day has gone by in which I have questioned our decision to move out this way.
It took a lot of courage to move. I questioned our decision right up until the moment I pulled up in the driveway of our new place and saw our beautiful house with a finished yard and big beautiful trees. It immediately felt like home. Though we STILL have unpacking and work to do, we settled in very nicely. The kids haven’t questioned the move, and just today Taylor came up to me and gave me the biggest hug saying he loved his new friends and new school and new hockey team. Awesome.
Over the past few weeks, my heart has been filled with indescribable love, pride and joy! Honestly, my heart is bursting. And it’s sad to say, but a year ago, I don’t remember feeling like this. And it’s not that I wasn’t feeling love, pride and joy. I always have. However, I realize now that the burden I have felt over the past year overshadowed EVERYTHING. My heart felt heavy. Until this change was made, I had no idea how deeply different things were affecting me. I feel like a load has been lifted off my shoulders.
I simply LOVE it out here. I love our home (though I can’t wait for work to slow down a bit so that I can decorate and give the house a Haggerty flair). Though I DO wish we had two more acres for a horse, I love our yard. There is lots of room to run and play. There are beautiful trees. We have enjoyed being outside more this summer than we have in years!! Being this close to Sherwood Park is amazing. The convenience of it is awesome. But it has also been good for our well-being. I have joined a yoga studio which I never would have been able to do back in Thorsby…it has been good for my soul particularly in the busy time of work. And Drew is able to get out to watch hockey games or get together with the boys. The daunting drive back to the city after a long days work always outweighed the desire to go in and do anything. And there is no (ok…very little) guilt about doing something for ourselves…because we have gained so much time together as a family already. Yep….life is very good.
It all just goes to show that everything happens for a reason. Everything.
Well, it has been a few months and we have moved to our place just outside of Sherwood Park and only one word can describe how I feel about the move…FABULOUS! It was honestly the best decision we could have made. We have a beautiful home that suits our family just perfectly. With a beautiful yard, that albeit is a lot of work to mow, but it’s perfect. I love how close we are to so many amenities. I have an amazing studio in the works. It has just been wonderful.
I am happier than I have been in months. We still have lots of unpacking to do as we have been enjoying the great outdoors while the sun shines. I need to add my personal touches to the house and there are a few touchups for paint that I want to do downstairs. We need some more furniture. But it will all happen with time.
We have enjoyed having a lot of company to see the new place. In fact, I think we have had more company out here than we did the entire time we were in Thorsby. We actually have space to entertain. And trees to block the wind which means we can stay outside more without being blown away. It’s been great.
We have also been enjoying the company of our new friends a lot this summer. Taylor’s spring hockey team was probably the best thing for him at making the transition out here easier, but it was also a blessing for us. We met so many great kids and families on the team and many have become great friends. We have spent time with them all at their cabins on the lake, at their homes, at the rink. It’s been wonderful.
It’s been a good summer indeed. Time with friends, time with family, great weather, fun activities all intermingled with quite a bit of work. Life is good. Very good and I am counting my blessings every day!!
To leave you with a few images of the girls that I took yesterday…
My two favourite princesses!
Words can't describe how much I love this girl. She is so beautiful.
My crazy princess. Love her so much.
She loves Copper. He is such an amazing dog!!
Wow..I need to get a grip. I’m an emotional basket case…over everything right now. Moving, finding a place, relationships. I honestly didn’t know I had so many tears in me lol. Life is good…don’t get me wrong. In the big picture I am extremely blessed and for that I am beyond thankful. But truth be told, I am struggling right now. It has been a hard year in many regards and the only thing that has stayed stable is my family and my love for them. I am questioning who I am as a person, who I want to be, what I stand for and the type of life I want for my most precious assets. I have made mistakes. I have cried…a lot. And at times I have felt very much alone (with exception of my mom and Drew). I have some definite soul searching to do in the very near future.
Well…it’s official! Our house is sold and we are packing everything up and moving. Never before has a decision been so difficult, and though I’m very excited over the change I am also petrified. It if very hard to give up on the grand dreams we had for this place…very, very hard.
Perhaps the reason it is so hard right now is that we don’t know where we are going exactly. We have a very short 59 days to find a place and move and being very “Type A”, not knowing where we will call home concerns me.
The move is good for us on so many levels. First, Drew will be cutting his drive time each day…significantly. Being a 20 minute drive from the office gives him an extra 30-40 minutes at the end of the day to be together as a family. Which translates to a relaxing dinner as a family and time at the end of the day to throw a ball with the kids, play a game as a family and more time to simply sit and visit. 30 minutes a day may not sound like much, but it amounts to 2 1/2 hours a week (and that’s only a one way savings so more like 5 hours each week). And 5 hours extra with your family each week…well that’s a big thing. Secondly, we are SO involved in activities, being closer to all those activities makes our lives that much easier. And we will have that much LESS running around. Thirdly, moving closer to the city gives me an opportunity to open a studio. This is extremely exciting to me…which again will amount to more time with the family because as opposed to a session taking 3-5 hours when you factor in driving and set up…it will now take approx 2 hours.
It is very hard to leave our current home. This is the very home where the last of my babies was born. We had such big aspirations for this place..and if I could pick it all up and move it closer to the city, I would do just that. We have a pretty piece of land that one day could be very beautiful. We have worked very hard here.
I’m hoping once we find our new home that I will be able to relax a bit. I AM very excited, but the unknown of everything is very trying. Wish us luck.
That’s right…I’m a slacker. So much so that I’m sure NOBODY even reads this anymore. But, I have input keeping up on my blog as a task in my phone with reminders…and what’s in my phone gets done. So here we go again. I have forgotten how important blogging has been in my life. Without blogging, I would have forgotten so much about the everyday goings on in my life…I would have forgotten things the kids have done and said and it’s the everyday things that are most important. So once I get pics downloaded from my phone and this blog set up a little better and prettier (i can’t even begin to remember how) I will get this going again. Whether anyone peaks at this or not…at least I will have the record for myself 😀
Some days I am simply in awe of where life has taken me. It seems like just yesterday I was graduating from high school. A friend reminded me that it will be 14 years this June. FOURTEEN YEARS?!? How the heck did that happen? I hardly feel old enough to be out on my own, a wife with three kids.
My days used to be spent hanging out with friends, planning parties, watching movies and reading books. When I wasn’t in school. How my days are different. I’m no longer concerned about myself. At all. My concern instead falls to my three little ones that I love more than I ever could have imagined. I think about them every minute of every day. My days are busy…sometime I get weary of all the running around that I do. Of the busy days in which every minute of the day needs to be planned in order to make it all work. But I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
I’ve been told many times that I’m too busy. That I have the kids involved in too much. THat we need to spend more time quietly at home. And sometimes, maybe that is so. BUT…we spend an incredible amount of time together. I AM on the road a lot. But I cherish that time. Because we are always TOGETHER. We no longer have a DVD player in our vehicle. So drives are spent having meaningful conversations. We teach each other wonderful things. I listen to Taylor read to the girls. We sing songs and dance and act crazy. We have fun.
Sometimes at home I get lost in the “all I have to do’s” of life. And so despite grand intentions, I don’t always sit down with the kids and chat. And sometimes at home, they are more interested in all their fun activities. So, when weekends and evenings get busy and I get just a little tired, I remember just how important our drives are together. And I cherish all that I learn about them on those times.
I love where life has taken me. It’s been a crazy road at times, but I”m so immensely proud of my family. I can’t imagine life any other way 😀
Well, it’s 2012. My blogging status has been less than desirable. And I’ve missed it incredibly. I miss the act of blogging and I miss looking back and seeing all that went on. It was a great way to journal and a great reminder of how great life is. We spent our New Year’s Eve at the Sheraton in Calgary. It was a great get-away for just our family and we spend HOURS in the pool. In the mornings, as the kids swam, I worked on my 101 things f0r 2012. And one of my things is to blog weekly. That’s only 52 posts in a year. And I WILL do it. Why? Because I have it SCHEDULED in my day. So, here is my first post of the year. I am really looking forward to all aspects of 2012. I will be working at being better at all aspects of my life and focus on the things that are most important. Business will be good. Relationships will be amazing. And I will be a strong, confident person. It’s been a hard last few months in several regards. Largely due the the way I let things out of my control affect me. I will focus hard on changing all that. This is part of my 101 things for 2012. Truthfully I am so glad to have made the list. I included things that will help me grow as a person…things that will challenge me in many ways, and things that make me take time out to enjoy the little things and the big things. It will hold me accountable to myself…the biggest thing. It sits on my fridge with a highlighter attached so that I can cross things off as they are done. My goal is to attain 90% of those things. Why not 100% you ask? Well…because some things on the list need some adjusting in order to be truly realistic. But I will be thrilled if I do 91 of my 101 things 😀
Part of my 101 things is to be diligent with project 52. So here are my first two weeks of pics 😀
Taylor got tickets to a world junior hockey game. He was thrilled and said it was the best thing ever. So naturally I had to get a picture of him and his dad before the game.
And then last weekend, my grandmother celebrated her 90th birthday. Bless her heart!
Happy Friday. Enjoy your weekend.